Last Trips

03.16.2022

A few last trips
That’s all she asked me for
A few more times to get away
Away away

Some people will never get to be that far away like we were
No signal, no service, no trail,
Charting an unknown path

We walked and walked
Last time we crawled together

Last night I lay next to her
Hearing every breathe
“Thank you God”
I heard myself say aloud
Thanks for giving me the most challenging dog I could have ever imagined

I looked at her
She told me she was grateful for me too
That she knows how hard I have worked for her
She knows I struggle to always make enough time for her
She knows how hard this last year was for us all

And she is ok with death
She is more worried about me than her
She is happy that my business is so busy
It is all because of what she taught me

When we think of an angel
We think of something that loves everything and everyone
We think of a human with wings and not a mean or aggressive bone in their light body

I know now I met an angel once 13 years ago
She was mean and nasty and only loved me and her family for 13 years
She was fierce and so powerful
She demanded respect of the highest degree
She followed me to the end of the earth and back
She gave me a reason to grow in ways I never would have
She changed the course of my life more than any single being I came across in this lifetime
And all the while
She kept it a secret
A deep deep secret
All the time I thought she was the lucky one
That I had trained and taught and led her
That I had been the leader

But it’s not true
She led me
She guided me and protected me
She healed me and trained me and taught me so much
Just like an angel
Only better
She was my angel
And yes
She always will be.